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im thinking of getting my big toe nail removed but im scared , it won't work and will be an waste of time , im also afraid of the side effects that comes with getting the whole nail removed.

i have always had trouble with the nail , from when i first hurt it i was little and dropped an can on it and slammed it in the door as well , and then escalated from then and then people ask me what happened to my nail and i have to explain it or say its complicated and long story as well. the nail is green and pointy at the top and i have to worry about it getting over grown but its so thick that it's hard to cut and stuff.

We were argueing over my future as I told her I wanted to quit dancing.. and she has done dancing for so long as has made me do dancing since 3.
Problem is, that I don't mind dancing but I go to a class and no one talks to me there and they've known me since 3 and I used to be shy so they see me as shy so I'm to scared to actually socialize with them.
They also preassure me.
I also do air force cadets on fridays which is SO STRESSFUL
st johns on mondays not too bad
AND I JUST MOVED SCHOOLS DUE TO REALLY REALLY BAD BULLYING.

I feel like there are so many changes in my life at the moment and I just can't think and well I admitted to my mum that I don't really like dancing and It just doesn't suit me.. but she got really mad and I want to join drawing class next year and a theatre group.. but she just said you don't even know if you like it.

and she's getting mad at me for all these changes.. but I just want to find something that works.. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up... but I know that its not dancing... and I was only doing it cause my mum liked it... but its something I get so anxious about and don't even have friends there.

Air force is something I wanted to do but lost interest as I am scared of planes... and camps..
I've done drawing and singing since 5 and practice all the time but I'm only at an average level so it isn't fair.

We were argueing more and my mum said "Well maybe you should of chose a better mother then" ..

which hurt a lot.. at the time it felt like what if I just killed myself or ran away.. is this my final day.. is this what really fks up my family forever. what is wrong with me and now mum just refuses to talk to me... I just really don't want to live her dream... and never know mine... and I have never done school homework due to all these activities after school blocking up my mind.