Search Results: taking own advice

I hope I'm not being a burden to everyone but I'm a 20 year old community college male student just sick and tired and bottling everything up. I deal with a lot of stress from my family problems (living with my parents), job and school. I'm struggling with my current math class in community college with my highest test grade being a 67% for that class. I was never good at math to begin with but I'm taking more math classes in community college anyway to transfer to University and get a major in Software Engineering since the majority of other college degrees that doesn't require a lot of math classes are useless here in the US.

There were many times where I just felt like quitting college and just hanging myself since I'm just no use to society at all and doesn't know how to use real world common sense if it meant saving his own life. Before I enrolled in community college, I once have already attempted to enlist in the military to help my financial and family problems up a bit but was unfortunately permanently DQ'd for a very small medical reason (my amblyopia/lazy eye affecting my eye pupil movement on the check up phase in MEPS) so don't give me the military enlistment advice since that didn't work out for me either.

I've asked questions like this on GAG and the internet many times but in all honesty, I just never felt comfortable with being open with my frustrations and anger to anyone, not even to my family members (my parents can't help me worth crap). I've thought about talking to a psychologist but I don't know if I even have enough time and money for them.

Sorry if I just wasted your time, by the way.