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I never see my boyfriend and I never get cuddled or anything but im extremely affectionate and I was with my best guy friend last night who my boyfriend hates but when his friends fell asleep my friend started cuddling me and I allowed it and it got pretty far... I feel like absolute shit as I should. Do I tell my boyfriend I cheated on him or should I just carry my own strong guilt. I hate lying to him but he already has trust issues of people and I dont want him to think that ill cheat on him again or if he ever has another girlfriend I dont want him to think she'll cheat either. What do I do? also if I told him I cheated then he'd know automatically who it was and he'd probably go hurt my guy friend.

... I think I should keep it to myself but I just feel so bad hiding it.

My ex broke up with me close to two years ago but here and there tries to get contact with me. About a year ago two days after our breakup he posted how happy he is in life, while I was so devasted I was barley eating for days, but after awhile I started to heal from the heartbreak. He told me he was sorry and it was his way of coping with the end of our relationship, but by the way he treated our "friendship" outside the relationship I don't believe it anymore. We tried to stay friends, but afterwards he kept lying to me, hiding things from me, treating me disrespectfully, gave me the same generic responses on how he cares about our friendship, but does not show it. As well he tried hiding he had a new girlfriend until we had a argument and he used his rude behavior as a validation for the new things he does in life. I've tried talking to him how stuff he's done hurt my feelings, and again, the same generic responses. "I care", "I'm sorry you feel that way", "I understand". When we were together he said how sex was a precious thing to him and he prefered to save it for marriage, which was totally fine. But when we broke up months later, he waved condoms in my face. Which I highly doubt he owns them for no reason. I bursted into tears that same day. I ended our so called "friendship" but sometimes he sends me a message on how am I doing, we haven't really had a real conversation for about 10mths now. I got tired of seeing him appear anywhere on facebook or any social networking sites, so I decided to just block him everywhere. We didn't have each other added anyway or even talk at all anymore, so I didn't think it would matter. I blocked him everywhere, but two days later to my surprise, he made a new account just to send me a message on facebook asking me how I was doing. Two days back when I was blocking him he shared a status saying how he misses someone and it's killing him, but a post after that he's asking for ideas to get a gift for his special someone.