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You can read my examples below. But in short, I have many positive qualities but they have flaws that contradict that quality. It's a whole mess. I never feel like I fully relate to any person. Not a single clique in school fits for me. Not a single friend group makes me feel like me. Guys... what do you think of people like me?

I am friends with people who are like me, but also unlike me at the same time.
1. I'm nice, yet my friends are way too nice and I feel like a b*tch if I say something truthful
2. I'm innocent yet I am not the purest but people treat me like someone who can't handle a dirty joke or something
3. I can be a rebel but I stick to some morals. I've met a bunch of cool nice friends but they party a lot and have tried weed. (heck, the last guy I was with was a weed/ vape juice dealer) I don't know how to feel about it. I haven't touched a single thing they have.
4. I can be mean/ swear if I want to but I am uncomfortable with both and I feel cruel sometimes
5. I'll do well in school, but I can't click with the nerdy smart kids at all.
6. I don't know everything, but I also don't click with "dumb" people whatever that even means.
7. I am not a movie or pop culture fanatic so I can't honestly relate to many memes, movies, or books
8. I honestly only click with people who like to talk about life, but at the same time I'm scared of the reality of how fast life is moving and I'm scared to talk about it
9. I am not super nerdy or am I super popular, but then again, I don't feel like I'm just an average
10. I am athletic in my own way, but not a strong athlete
11. I am highly artistic and creative with coloring and painting and video editing. yet I am not the best at sketching or drawing from my head. I just can't