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We broke up a year ago. It was my fault. Just if you're wondering.

"It has come to my attention that you only contact me to ask about whether i have moved on from you or not? Or talked about how "naughty" we were together. As i have told you twice that i am still trying to move on and you contacting me again is making it harder than it already is. If you have no intention of you and me being us again then i think you should stop sending me mssg. My feelings for you is still the same like it was 5 years ago and i think you should know this before you stop all contact with me. I know I've treated you really badly and i am very sorry. I'm already under a lot of stress right now please dont make it worse for me. I've been thinking about suicide dozens of times this past year. When you last contacted me it gave me hope that maybe we could be together again by saying "talk to you soon" then just leave me there hanging, thinking about you only contact me to talk about the "amazing" times we had. Why are you doing this to me? To get back to me for what i did to you? M*****, im very tired. My soul is tired. So as i said before if you have no intension of getting back together with me then don't contact me anymore. By this i mean forever. If you feel like writing back a closure then please do, it will make it easier not just for me but also for you. I will respect whatever you decide, i will never try to win your heart back which i know it won't work anyway. Thank you for reading this."

i know i seem very desperate and pathetic here buy i really dont care. It has been a year since the breakup last week was the second time he measaged me he said he misses me and blablabla and he brokeup with his girlfriend. I need a closure and i dont expect him to take me back. I just need to know why he's doing it.

Why would a guy say that I've always really liked you when he already has a girlfriend (albeit a very new, about a few weeks relationship)? He said they're kind of 'together' now.

Granted he thought I was never/not that interested in him but when I expressed my disappointment at his having a girlfriend, he said he had a really great time at our last date/meeting (it was ambiguous) and that he has always really liked me. I want him to give us another shot.

We we are meeting up to talk soon and he seems really keen about it (offering up many dates and being very accommodating when I had to reschedule) Is it possible to get closure or is it his feelings getting the best of him?

Also, would you say that his feelings for me are still quite intense at this point in time?

I'd gladly welcome any input, thanks!