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I cannot and will not get over a woman's romantic history, especially those formed during her youth. That means previous middle school, high school, or college boyfriends. That means guys she was close to romantically from her youth, whether that be an official relationship or not.

It is a long explaination. I rather not go into it just yet.

Just know part of this is due to me never having my first actual girlfriend.

I feel like at this point, if I were to get into a relationship, me and the woman will be adults. The relationship would be more adultlike, while I never even got a chance to experience a youthful relationship.

But that does not necessarily mean I like being single either. I feel lonely.

What do you think it would be like to live an entire lifetime never experiencing a romantic relationship? This would likely entail never having kids of my own.

I'm not talking about online dating sites I'm talking about dating a girl from another country only online until you get a chance to meet in real life. I've done it once before so I'll share my story, I know that everything about this seems cringy and weird as hell but please read
On the beginning of scholar year in 2017, my friend showed me a YouTube channel called poppy, just Google it if you don't know her the channel is so weird. So I don't know why but I became a fan and i entered something like a fandom on Twitter and I started texting some of her fans and well, i texted a girl named Victoria and we were friends ever since
She was really shy and actually she was lonely in real life and doesn't have too many friends at school. She was pretty thoug and I really liked talking to her and we almost texted 15 yours a day... anyway so after some time I told her that I love her and I knew she did as well so we started dating.
She was perfect in my books, we didn't even video chat or anything like that but I mean her character. She was everything i ever wanted. She was a little bit shy, she was like cute and was a little bit worried sometimes and tells me about her problems and she was also religious like me but she wasn't like way too religious which was great she was also she was one year older. She was from Poland.
But after some time I had some problems with the fans, they were annoying and kept calling me stuff like homophobic and also were attacking my friend Jake. So after some time I noticed my Ex was changing, she started being like more popular and didn't even want to talk to me, she started being anorexic as well, that cute shy schoolgirl started cussing and saying weird stuff and liking "really weird" tweets. After some time she told me she wants to break up and I was shocked because she was always the one telling me "please promise to never break up"... I I beleive it's this crazy lesbian that made her do it, that woman always hated me