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So to get an opinion from the best view possible, I have to tell you the entire story from beggining to end. But I'll make it short... ish. Grade 8-11 we were best friends, everyone thought we should date, but I friend zoned him. Untill about late grade 11, I finally said yes. We were the perfect couple from the eyes of our aquaintances. But he was an impulsive liar and yes I caught him in the act many times, but always forgave him which I shouldn't have. Then one day we went to a party I got too drunk and had sexual relations with a friend of ours. No excuses I did what I did. We broke up shortly after, so we dated untill the summer after graduation (approx 16 months). We completely stopped talking and I believed we would never speak again. I had always been close with his friends, and while we were broken up I talked to one in particular just so I knew how my Ex was doing and because they were honestly one of my best friends too. Then things got to be more than friends... Soon my Ex started talking to me again, which was the hardest thing I think the both of us had ever done. We slowly gre back our friendship and started to date again. Which didn't go over very well. Not only because he found out about me and our mutual friend having a relationship but because he found out from someone other than me. So there we were, saying goodbye for the second time. Not to our friendship but to our romantic relationship. Eventually in November of 2015 we stopped talking all together again. Then 68 days later he texts me... so now we're friends again... and on Valentines day we decided to hang out. A few of our friends were going to a bar we like and we ended up going. We danced and has some drinks, it was fun. Then twards the end of the evening he kissed me. We went home, and then... he drove the 20 minutes back to my place to sleepover, and you can guess how that went. I don't know what to think, feel, do or say. All I know is I love him. I'm in need of some advice!