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I want to get dreadlocks. I fucking love dreadlocks but i was always afraid to get them. Now money isn't a issue for me but I never got dreadlocks because..

1. My parents think natual hair is ugly.

2. Most men don't like natural hair, let alone dreadlocks on black women.

3. I'm going to apply for a new job next month working at a restaurant part time. I planned on just getting straight sewin weave and straightening my hair whenever I don't wear it. I honestly don't like wearing straight hair but I feel like I have to otherwise I won't be able to keep a job, I won't have a boyfriend and everyone at my house tells me I shouldn't wear dreads because they are ugly but I love dreads. The main thing is, Im getting a part- time job soon...

When I wear weaves I just feel so unhappy and out of place with myself. I don't feel like me when I'm wearing weaves. I just wore them because the people around me don't like my natural hair. Now that I have a job and I can technically go out and get dreads if I wanted, people's opinions always stopped me... Every black women around me wears wigs so I feel weird about wearing my own hair out and I'm constantly worried about what other people think or if I look okay to be out in public. Most black women wear wesves. Since my personality is also very different from other people I felt even more different and uncomfortable.
i feel even more left out and different and for some reason I hate feeling different and I feel uncomfortable having a lot of attention from people so I basically hide in my house all day and worrying about what people think of me. I'm afraid of making a YouTube channel because I'm afraid of a lot attention and I'm starting to feel uncomfortable being around people.

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