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at the age of 8 i searched up if my weight for my age was obese and it said i was obese, for so long i thought i was obese but i never tried to lose weight. i just binged and binged. by seventh grade i started giving away my food or throwing it away, i tried to only eat dinner. by year 8 something happened with a boy and i began to starve but this lasted a short period of time, but that doesn’t make it less serious it was on and off, at some point i lost 10 kilograms (22 pounds), this year grade 9 it’s still on and off, I’ve tried purging, I’ve starved but this is on and off. at this point I’m currently starving, and this time I’m not sure if this will be on and off. could i possibly have an eating disorder?

I like this guy but he’s 9 years older than me. I’m turning 18 in June.. He said he liked me too but wanted to wait until I was 18 to actually go out..
Although he’s causing more pain in my life than I expected. Before he came in my life.. I was already messed up. I have a disease that causes me pain and it’s not curable.. I wanted to end that pain twice and ended up in the psych hospital because of it.
So besides the suicidal attempts.. I recently stopped self harming and it’s been a year without my eating disorder stuff.

Now my eating disorder is back... All because of him.
He told me I could stand to lose 30 pounds.. just in my thighs. And because I’m only 4’11 I shouldn’t have muscles or any curves. And that it’s okay to be a bit chubby but not fat. He also said that I won’t get anyone that’s attractive and said that I was below a 5... I hate myself so much and when he said that I wanted to die again.. He said he likes me but then why.. why is he hurting me? I really need some advice y’all...

First of all, have you heard some of what these kids go through? Having to gain weight quickly or lose it quickly in order to wrestle? I've heard of guys punching themselves before matches so they can bleed out enough to meet their weight requirement. I've seen wrestlers eat next to nothing for days and then as soon as a match is over eat a bunch which seems a lot like a hidden binge eating disorder. I understand that some love the sport but it's not good for them.

I’ve gone through eating disorders just because of my legs and many years of insecurity because of them. i would like to know your opinions : )