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I met her like about 6 months back on a chat site and we added each other on facebook and used to talk all day. Tbh, there are several reasons why I shouldn't even bother too much about it, at least the things I tell myself.
a. She is ching chong Asian and i don't take ethnics seriously.
b. Her English is kinda weird.
c. She watches korean drama and likes those type of girly guys and while i am alright looking, not the Asian ken doll type.
d. She is a very beautiful girl but based on being approached I can date equally pretty girls quite easily so i am definitely not desperate because of her looks.
e. She used to flirt with me a lot before and I took it for granted and I tried to steer the conversation to only Skype sex every time (got it a few times too lel) then later, I started to do the same to her and she was pushing me away and I kept feeling bad.
f. She made out with some real life friend of hers of 3 years when he asked her out and he didn't date her later and I felt like a major beta cuck because she used me as online support over it without telling me and I called her every derogatory name and blocked her when she confessed. It also disappoints me to think that i figured out out who the guy was and he is some fuggo babyfaced Asian boy which makes me doubt her standards.

The last two points are something that make me hate her to death.

But then again, I can't even get over this girl since we used to talk all day, share quite a bit of personal stuff, she was a REALLY nice girl when I compare with the other hoes i keep on meeting, it was like finding a treasure and losing it since lets be honest, literally impossible to find a b*** today worth dating in this generation.