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Nora is 21 years old. She recently graunted from college and has a degree in teaching. Her friend, Jerry is 20. He's a high school dropout with a GED and no other skills but drawing and being nice to people. Jerry also has PTSD, has issues expressing his feelings, and panic disorder. Jerry is trying to get a job, but he struggles because of his criminal background and panic disorder. Despite this, Jerry is very kind. He cooks, cleans, and enjoys cuddling. Sometimes Jerry's urges to cuddle and hug all the time annoy Nora, but she takes it with a smile. Then they had s*ex. Nora thought the sex was okay but boring. She lied and told Jerry it was fine. Sometimes she wants to tease Jerry and make fun of him for small things but she tries her best not to say anything that would upset him, no matter how annoyed she gets. she hates that she feels like she needs to be a different person around him and how boring the s*x is. Jerry eventually starts freelancing
and is able to pay rent/save money. While she does think Jerry is cute and a good friend, that's all she ever saw him as. Then they had s*x again and Nora forgot that her birth control shot expired and ended up pregnant. Since they both don't believe in abortion, they decided to keep the baby.

I will try to keep it short. I love a guy who has never loved me back. He knows about my feelings towards him, I've told him that many times. I've known him for 4 years but we were mainly writing, I met him about 10 times in real life.
Two weeks ago he was at my 18th birthday party, besides him there were only my 2 best friends. He is in a long term relationship and I knew that. But I was constantly scratching his back, touching his hair, hugging him, even giving him pecks on his hair and the back of his neck. I thought that if he doesn't say anything it means that he allows.
Now that I think about it I'm embarrassed and I regret it. I shouldn't have done that to someone who is in a relationship and he could feel uncomfortable and just didn't want to tell me anything because it would make the atmosphere VERY awkward.
I don't think I will ever see him again for a few reasons that are not the point now.
It was 2 weeks ago, maybe I shouldn't touch that topic?
Or should I write an apology?