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Right now Im not in a place to date, because I believe that Im too young for something serious, and I think messing around is useless and only messes with people's feelings. Im in more of a friend's position, while I find what I like in a guy and to meet guys and talk to them without feeling guilty or making someone jealous. If someone tells me they like me, how do I friend-zone him without being rude or making him feel rejected, and still keeping him as a friend? Girls, please share your experiences😉

So like a month back, I was rude to this guy I like. It was that time of the month and I told him "I hate guys like you" and was also friendzoning him. Our convo was going pretty normal untill then but right after I said I hate him he stopped replying and after a while he just wrote "how rude. But okay. It was nice talking to you. See you next life" and he blocked me off everywhere except snapchat (idk why he didn't block on snapchat even though we used to snap each other a lot) and just when he blocked I called him from my mom's phone he didn't answer the call maybe because he was still angry at that time and knew it was me. I also left a text from that number asking him why he blocked me ( I know it's a dumb question) and he hadn't even opened my message for like days but yesterday I saw that he has read it.
I miss him a lot and not just for the attention that he gave. I really miss talking to him.
Also, we met online and haven't ever met in person eventhough we used to keep making plans to meet. But we used to text each very often (conversations mostly always initiated by him) and now when all of this is over I feel a bit too guilty for the way I spoke to him. Should I reach out to him and say sorry? I also don't want him to think I'm desperate or anything.