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Back drop to the story is when I was 19, I ended up in a bad place. Found a guy that I practically loved, but at the same time was going through a bit of turbulence in my life at the time and had to drop out of my university course etc which was completely embarrassing for me.

Anyway, I was drinking heavily at the time each weekend. And then I met this aforementioned guy - and I really really liked him. Like seriously, had never felt like I did about someone before him. Things went swimmingly to begin with, and I forgot about all of the other troubles during that time.

Things had been too good to be true, only for him to decide early on that he didn't want things to go further, and he was also 'bored' because I wouldn't sleep with him. I don't believe in sex before marriage - and it's a good job in that situation that I didn't.

So I was extremely upset at the time, felt even worse than I had before. A few months after the split, he invited me to a house party at his and I agreed to go (naively hoping we'd sort things out).

I went over drunk to find that he'd taken drugs and was trying to pursue a relationship with one of my friends who I'd went to school with.

So me and my friend were sitting together, only two girls at the party, and all the other guys in the room were taunting us with 'you should kiss'. Now, I'm in no way a believer of this kind of thing. But my drunken self saw this as an opportunity to get back at my ex for hurting me like he did.

So we kissed like very briefly, maybe 3-4 seconds and my ex walked in and got extremely annoyed. As I had hoped at that time.

However a now more mature me, who is t-total and settled in another relationship with no contact with my ex still feels extreme regret and shame about what I did. Especially when my motives were as sour as they were. The thought still haunts me, because I stand for the exact opposite of everything I did.

I mean seriously, will I ever lay this to rest? I'm so ashamed.

Thoughts?

I may be the only one who would choose the last variant.
Although I am single but I know I would be more jealous of his male friends as guys are more connected to their male friends than female friends. Most guys I know enjoy more their male friend's company than a female one. It seems girls prefer male friends and guys prefer male friend too. So everyone prefers male friends. lol
Although I like guys who are very friendly and have tons of friends but such guys tend to spend most of their time with friends which bothers me as I would think he trusts his friends more than me and he enjoys their company more than mine.
I really want him to spend more of his time with me. As you see my jealousy has nothing to do with physical intimacy. I would never think he flirts with his friends (male or female) This is why I am ok with him having female friends if I know he is not the flirty type. The reason of my jealousy is his connection with his friends.
Does he tell his problems his friends first? Does he share more secrets of his with his friends than with me? Does he want to go out with his friends more than with me?
Please answer this question as well!
"Wouldn't you be jealous if your SO had more connection with his/her friend than with you even if he/she feels physical and sexual attraction only for you?