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Well, there is this guy that I've had a crush on since I was in 3rd grade (we are seniors in High school now), so maybe about...8/9 years? Yeah, I know, I'm pathetic TT^TT. But I'm a pretty shy person. I was bullied when I was younger, so I tend to stutter a lot and have low self-esteem. Public speaking is a difficult thing for me, and speaking to someone privately is no different.

Here's the thing, he's pretty popular at our school and I feel a little envious of the other girls who can speak with him without hesitation. I still stutter around him even though he has been my [male] best friend since pre-k.

My [female] best friend, 'Sara', has told me that he is currently single and I'm his ideal type. However, I've hung out with him and his other friends when he was dating before. None of the girls are like me in any way, they are completely opposite. 'Sara' insists that she notices the way he glances at me, and tells me he definitely has feelings for me. Her evidence:

1) We were all hanging out before, and I lost a bet and had to do a dare. I had to eat something really spicy. I can't stand spicy food, so he volunteered to do the dare for me. The condition was that I had to baby sit with him over the weekend.

2) My brother decided to be an a*hole and leave me stranded without a ride at the mall, just so he could go to a party. I don't like taking public transit because I feel unsafe by myself. I had called Sara and asked her if she could pick me up. I am the only person on our group of friends who can't drive yet. When I didn't see her car, I called she told me that he [my crush] left the party early to give me a ride. He probably the figured out when he saw my brother at the party.

3) He wrote me a song for my birthday. Sara told me that he never wrote a song for a specific person, ever. Not even for his previous girlfriends.

There is a lot more to her list...but the character remaining is running out.

I want to tell him how I feel, but I'm afraid it will ruin our friendship, or make it down right awkward for us both. He also might have done those things to be a good friend. I really want to tell him, but...I need help.