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I'm wondering if phobias and fears should always be cured. Why/why not? Should you always exposure yourself to things because of your own fears? #Phobia #Fears #Afraid

I've a lot of phobias and fears.
Phobias: Dogs, snakes, balls, balloons, astronaut suits, space.
Fears: Losing a loved one, rape, violence (criminals exists), the dark, injuries and blood that looks real in certain contexts. (Not fake stuffs like GoT).

I fear dogs because of I was almost attacked by one when I was 5, but the owner stopped it. Snakes has a disgusting appearance, I've been injured in soccer and balloons makes an awful sound. Space and astronaut phobia were something I got after a scary movie. Don't like horror movies either.

I don't like the look of injuries, dead people or blood either. Crushed and disfigured faces are the worst. E. g. Paul Walker, but way worse. Yes, traffic teachers will show you stuffs like that. If I watch a movie or real pictures of it I've trouble sleeping. I've no problem with fake looking stuffs in "kids" shows like GoT (Red wedding, Arya Stark + Meryn Trant), but real looking stuffs like in Gravity (2013), documentaries and pictures from the news makes me go crazy. Pictures of war victims, injured car accident victims etc. can make me sleepless for days. People saying GoT is bloody hasn't seen the real stuffs. Most beheading, hanging and other execution scenes in movies looks fake. Especially in the medieval ones and these ones that aren't horror movies or real pictures.

I have a crush on a student dentist that has been operating on me.

We have similar interests and have had some deep conversation. But my feelings gets so intense that when she checks my blood pressure it is too high!

So, today I call a phone number she gave me. It has a city area code. I guesd its a University dentist google number. The second number has an area code for the county. Her cell? The student dentist has called me on both in the past. But the area codes for each number are different. I use the city area code number because thats what she has been using for appointments.

I leave a voicemail and tell her I forgot the date of the next appointment. I am nervous. I accidentally leave my work number. I correct myself and give my cell number all in the voicemail. I am a shy idiot talking to my crush.

The girl calls back 2 minutes later. I answer by greeting her. I hear background talking but no answer. Then she hangs up on me. I realize she called me back on her second number instead of the one I originally called. Why? Its a county area code. Is it her personal cell phone? Well, after hanging up the phone she doesn't call back. So a minute later I call her.

She answers right away. She sounds perfect but a bit more odd than usual. I ask if she got my voicemail... (the emberrassing one where I stammer and give the wrong number)... she says "No." (I dont believe her). Then she says, "Is everything okay?"

I tell her very clearly that everything is just fine. Then I ask her the date for my next appointment. I thank her and start telling her to have a nice weekend.

She immediately cuts in, "How's it going?" I tell her once again that I am fine. Then I thank her and start to say goodbye. But she right away cuts in and says...

"How's everything going in your mouth?"

I repeat back on the phone, "Hows everything going in my mouth...".. she doesn't react and there's an awkward pause... i say, "uhm... fine... there was soreness but im good."