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I've never had much affection I avoid it bc it makes me uncomfortable. But I'm seeing a guy who I really like and for the first time I really desire to be held and hold someone.

Problem is I can't come remotely close to say hugging him or just laying my Hand or head or whatever on his body or really anything. Just thinking of doing anything makes me feel like I'm being needy or clingy or a weak person. Though I know the weakness would be letting myself settle for what I don't want bc I'm uncomfortable trying. But none the less I think of myself expressing affecrtion and I think of a person I dont want to be. And though it'd suck if he felt equally turned off by me as I would , his reaction is not my main concern.. it's MINE towards myself.

I sense her feels awkward too though in his case I'd if he's just shy or he too feels embarrass to desire or express affection.

It's very frustrating bc it's the main thing is like to experience and I'd what I'm doing in a relationship where I'm not doing the main thing I want to be doing.

Plus it builds up a lot of tension which adversely affects time we spend together doing other things.

Plus ill never ever be ready to have sex if I can't get Comfortable touching him and vice versa.


Anyone here have gone through this? And or have suggestions?