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A couple days ago, my boyfriend got me mad and It was the last straw for me and I said to him through text that I don't think it's going to work. I know, a text. But hear me out, he dissapointed me once again, I was really depressed about what he did and I was so hurt that at that point I didn't have anything more to say to him. A day after, I was really depressed. I started having suicidal thoughts, I cried all day. I have a lot of mental issues (depression disorder, anxiety, panic attacks). In the evening it became really bad, and I, on one hand, wanted to see him, because we often said to each other that no matter where we are with our relationship, we can call eachother if we really need help. On the other hand, I didn't want to because I was still hurt and missundertood by him.
I decided to call him. He told me to come to his house. When I came, at first it was ok, then we started talking, then fighting again, then I had a panic attack. I said to him that It'll be better for everyone if I'm dead today, and theb I left. He tried to stop me by calling my name. But that's it. He didn't chase me, or call me.
When I was sitting on a bench outside and thinking about overdosing, he started texting me about how he's also hurt and how could I say stuff like what I said to him. It was mainly about him. He didn't give a fvck about what I was about to do, at least it seemed like it.
I ended up drinking a couple of tablets for anxiety and cutting myself and then going home. When I was in my bed he came to my house (my parents let him in, they don't have a clue about anything whst Im going though) and then he layed by my feet and hugged them. I was really exhausted from crying and numbed by the medication, so I let him. He got out when I fell asleep. The next day he deeply apologised to me. I desided to give him another chance, but if he blows this one, it's over. It seemes like he understood that but I still can't forget how he betrayed me that night. More at the edit

So me and my ex boyfriend have been together for 1year. We have both always been there for each other - doctors appointments, his surgery, he also helped me lose weight and get my drivers license. Occasionally we were having small stupid disagreements like about what I should wear, drama with his friends- he has always kept our relationship private. He was also in jail for 3 months. he was talking to me everyday saying how much he loves me and misses me and was talking to me about future plans. i was also visiting his parents house and him in jail. he knows I’m loyal to him and would never cheat on him.
Now as soon as he came out of jail, he began to act a bit differently: we were fighting more often (about what I should be wearing, my diet, and finances. 4 weeks ago he began talking to a mutual friend of ours whom recently broke up with her ex. I stayed home then he went out. So I was online after and suddenly this female tells me that she’s on a date with my man. I freaked out and was phoning her and my boyfriend then he separated with me cuz of that, yet he still has me staying over at his house cuz he wants to potentially fix things between us. He also tells me that he’s using her to show her off to our group of friends cuz he doesn’t want people to suspect that me and him were/are ever together cuz he was away for 3 months. Yet he talks to her everyday and is having sex with her and stays overnight with her on weeeknds... and he's with me during the week... he also says he doesn’t have those kinds of feelings for her and that she’s too tall for him. Now he also tells me that he prefers her in the sense that she listens to his fashion advice whereas I don’t always and she also cools him off when he’s hot whereas I don’t... he says it hurts him how someone whom he's not in love with does these things and I the girl he loves me, doesn’t... he also tells me that he would end things sooner than later with her if I show him improovements and be a “good girl”