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I`m a 30+ European who met a 36 year old American on Tinder in my hometown. I didn't plan anything to happen between us but it did. We`ve been together now for a year now. He is treating me good, our relationship is full of adventure, laughter, romance and good sex. He met my family and some friends and adores all of them. I met some of his friends. He knows I want a family in the future and he was kids oriented too.
He currently lives 3 hour drive away. In couple of months he is moving back to the USA. (he is currently here due to his work (army)). Right now we spend about 3-6 days per month together and occasionally some vacations.

I told him I love him few months ago. He said he knows but never replied back. I didn't bother much.
We haven't talked about what will happen when he will go back. I think we are postponing this discussion as it will be hard I`m willing to try long distance and maybe even move to the states in the future, but he doesn't know that. I`m planning to have this talk few weeks before his departure.

But now sth happened. During some discussion he told me he doesn't want kids. That he is too old. I was in shock and upset as he never mentioned that before. I didn't know what to do. I pulled myself away as this new information frightens me.

Later I asked him what does it mean that he never replies when I tell him I love him. After a silence he said he cannot say that back to me. That he is not "there yet". If he is not there yet, after a year, will he ever be?

All together got me rethinking our relationship. Feeling all sorts of stuff: from questioning if I am not worthy of love to feeling deceived. Am I just his temporarily European GF? Or is he a closed off, emotionally damaged soldier trying to not get attached to people?

I dont know what to do at this point. Either to continue this relationship or break it off. One thing is for certain: I will close down a bit as this is my defense mechanism.

Any advice or opinion is appreciated.

I have been seeing a friend with benefits for about 7 months now but I can’t tell if he actually likes more than he’s admitting. When we have sex he’s always saying how sexy I am during sex and he gives me hickies on my back that hurt for a week. I always get the feeling he wants to kiss me but he doesn’t. Also one time I told him he was the second guy I’ve been with and he asked if I was seeing someone else and I said I was but that I’m not anymore. He said good because he knew I was seeing someone else and was going to end it because of that! Like what? We are only friends with benefits so I’m confused. And one time when we were having sex he said you only having sex with me right? I said yes! But it’s so many mixed signals. We have never even been on a date or anything also. Do you think he has feelings?