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(First off Im into good smart girls) I've never had a girlfriend, not even close, so I don't know if girls like me. For the physical side I am 6'1" 16 years old. I am lean and pretty muscular. I think I have a good looking face but mainly when my hair is fixed. My hair is dirty blond and normal length for a guy. Now mentally/emotionally I am a very nice guy, respectful, good morals. I am a strong Christian, go to church on Sunday, listen to KLove and stuff. I'm very smart and near the top of my class with a 4.225 cumulative GPA and raising. So I think I'm good looking and nice and stuff. So I know that's a plus. But I know girls are attracted to confidence. That is something I don't have. I've never approached a girl just to talk to her or to get to know her, barely talk to girls really or people in general. I was diagnosed with selective mutism at a young age, but gotten much better. I am still EXTREMELY shy. Sometimes I don't talk to my friends because I'm uncomfortable. People/decent amount of girls at least know who I am. So I have some friends and people that know me. The thing is I just don't ever talk much primarily to girls. I just feel like I'll be bugging them or theyll not like me and laugh on the inside or think Im weird or creepy. I don't ever hang out with my friends outside school except one sometimes, another one rarely. I feel like an annoyance and feel they wouldn't wanna hang out I don't know why. I don't even have my second best friends phone number. So I'm not social or confident, awkward around people and suck at conversation with girls and a lot of guys. But i do open up to most people once i know them. How big of a downfall is this in the dating game? I feel like everything is almost perfect for me except social skills, probably the most important. I just wait for girls to approach me. That never happens and my big crush is shy. Am I a guy you'd be interested in? Be honest I take no offense. And if you respond, what type of girl are you?

My parents are not religious. They are conservative politically, and I guess a tad socially, but not religious at all. My paternal grandmother was a devout Christian, but she died when I was very young.

One of my groups of friends I made mostly in middle school, who I guess fit in the "nerd crowd"... inactive and somewhat studious. Most of them, are nearly militantly atheist. Used way too much profanity. I've been distancing myself from them, but still have occasionally conversations. Overall, they have not given me a strong opinion of atheism. They were very intolerant.

The second group of friends, whom I have been closer with throughout high school, are those who I know from cross country. Most of them are hard-workers, and a lot of them are religious - some mainline Christians, some evangelicals, and some Mormons. One of whom is the person who I'd describe as my best friend right now, is an evangelical Christian who I have known since 7th grade. At the end of my eighth grade year, he invited me to come with him to a church camp, and I did. It was really weird for me at first, but I ended up having a lot of fun and being exposed to something new. For the next 3 years, I attended his church service with him on and off, as well as many of his youth group's functions, learning about the Christian interpretation of God and our role in the world. I really did value the experience. And I've had moments, you know, where it just feels like God is there, answering a particular prayer of mine. The thing is, I didn't know if it was really the Christian interpretation of God.

About a year ago I decided to stop going to church with my friend. My friend told me that was fine and he respected that, and we've still been good friends.

What do you make of this? Is anyone else confused or undecided about your religious views?