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Hi, so I have been dating my boyfriend now for 2 years we have had some on and off times and I did sleep with someone else when we weren't on good terms and weren't even talking but to him that is cheating because we got back together to me I never had intentions of getting back together so I was doing what I wanted. But now he just got arrested somewhere he really shouldn't have been with a girls phone ( a girl that he knows and has already been an issue since he lied and said he had sex with her which as far as I know he didn't and he always had a crush on her) well now I can't talk about the situation and if I do he brings up me cheating so I can't even feel anyways about this also I am pregnant and was pregnant when he was locked up with her phone. But since I did what I did I can't even feel a way about it which I feel is unfair. But yeah wanted someone else's opinion I have no one else to bring this to can't even talk to my boyfriend about it as you see

I grew up without my father being in my life and I remember being very emotional and angry with him at the time.

Years later I found out that he needs W has a woman and has three kingdoms D's by her. I'm only getting to know my sister and she tells me that he is an amazing Father. I now realise that my mother was the one who kept me away from him all this time. I lost out on so much. I mean I have two amazing sisters who I'm getting to know. And I'm starting to have a little bind with my new baby brother. Who is Seven.
I missed out on their birthdays , chrismases new years celebrations.. thanks Givings.. all because my mother had been selfish.
I Made a personal decision that if My boyfriend and I ever broke up, that no matter how bad things are I will not keep the kids from him.
But as a modern female These are my options. "AMD THE POWER I HAVE IS VERY SCARY"
the options giving to by The Law
. if I was three months pregnant. i could do the following1. i could abort he a child even if he wants it. 2. i can give his child up for adoption even if he wants it. 3. I can break up with him and have him not see his child4. Heck I can even leave the country and have him. Not see his kid. I missjudged him.. And I owe him an apology.. But I'm not a bitch. I will not my anyone from a loving caring father

Cheating is a lot of work that’s just not worth the risk of getting caught. It takes a lot of planning, a lot of covering up! The lies to the other woman. The lies to your partner. When does the pleasure turn to guilt? As soon as you orgasm and reach for the skies.
For a year and half we didn't engage in a physical relationship. There was flirting and fantasizing about each other sexually when we were apart. We shared intimate details and were into each other. We both reached out to each other because, well I don't know, I remember telling him I thought he would care. He listened. It felt like he cared. One of greatest pleasures was the anticipation of pleasure. We both admitted that when I stopped rejecting him and gave into the sexual tension. Sex was an intense high. Five hours later we agreed to have sex everyday. He left happy! I was happy and ready and anticipating the next session. That was the one and only time we had sex.
He called the next morning. He came by picked up my laundry and we made plans to meet at 8. I got caught up with dinner at my best friend's place. He text me at midnight. It was a clear message. I told him we would go our own way. He let me go. I saw him the next morning at the casino. I won $300. I was with our mutual friend that contacted me and asked me to go. He wouldn't even look at me.
I found out a week later that he lied to me from the beginning. He was in a relationship with the the woman he shared a child with. They did break up when we were together. Maybe they got back together the same day he left my house after we had sex. That's what I believe. It doesn't really matter though. She's pregnant and due in May with a boy!!! He failed to mention that! It's clear he was reacting on the defense for self preservation, no regard to my feelings. Truth came to light.
Was it worth it?
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