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I’ve ghosted the man that I love. Because I was scared of him falling for me. I ran away from it. And I wasn’t ready. He wanted to settle. He wanted to get married. He wanted to have a baby. And I was not ready for it all. I was afraid to fall for him. I tried everything to get him to not like me and now he don’t. Over the year he still kept in contact, he checked on me and I started to like him even more even when I tried to avoid him. I want him. I love him always have and alway will. I never stop I just need time to think on what to do and if I did or not. He said he like me but it is not like it was before and he constantly brings up what I did to him. I’m doing all I can to prove that I made a mistake and I loved him all along. What should I do? How to get him to fall for me again? I know I should have never ghosted him and it hurts me to know that I went about it that way, sometimes I feel like that my karma is hitting me because it breaks my heart to know he don’t care and there might be a possibility that he will never want me ever again. Please only mature answers... I don’t want to give up on him but it hurts me because I know I am the one that broke him heart and made him into the broken man that he is right now. But I just want to put back the pieces and I told him I will never leave him ever again.

If the god you worshipped demanded you sacrifice (kill) someone you love to prove your devotion, would you do it?
Assume that it is verified to be your god/goddess and is in no way a trick.