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So I’ve known this guy a while, we’re basically friends. We’re both popular streamers on an app..
So we were at a party and had both been chatting each other up a bunch.. every couple of minutes we’d kinda find ourselves next to each other and chat for a second then we’d move away again..
He’s the social, but shy type at the same time. And I’ve been trying to figure out if he’s just being friendly or if there’s some flirting in there.
I’ve developed a crush on him over the months that I’ve known him.
So at some point, during the party.. I guess he got rather drunk and sprawled himself on a couch with his eyes wide open in front of the tv... I noticed this and immediately got extremely concerned.. I rushed over to him and gently grabbed his shoulder and asked him if he was ok... he kinda blinks slowly and gives me a huge smile and says “yeah, I’m fine.. thanks for worrying”.. and he kinda just grabbed my hand off of his shoulder gently.. and he took it between both of his hands while sitting up a little bit.. and he kinda affectionately rubbed my hand slightly before taking my hand up to his lips and kissing the back of my hand... all while keeping eye contact with me... I probably blushed extremely hard and just said “no problem! I’m glad you’re ok!”
In retrospect I’m kinda kicking myself for not kissing his cheek or something?
All I know is that I felt an immense warmth in that moment and it was really intense... I have to also consider that he was super drunk and possible not thinking...
what do you think?
Does it seem like I’m thinking too much or does it seem like there’s some sort of chemistry between us?

This guy and I have been doing this dance for years now, trying to figure out if we should date. Distance was the problem for a long while, but now we're close by again and he told me he wants to give us a shot, but he wants to be sure of what he wants first.

He's never been in a relationship, so I know he's sort of clumsy and often doesn't know what to do (he said it himself when we kissed - it was his first - the last time we met up). He's also 4 years younger than me (I understand I need to be patient with him). Recently he's been distant, although the last time we spoke he said his feelings hadn't changed and promised me he'd let me know the instant he changed his mind about wanting to give us a shot.

He's been distant in the past (we suck at texting) and I've blatantly asked him if we could try harder to communicate. He's said yes on two separate occasions and he's followed through-for a few days/weeks each time, before reverting to distant texting habits again.

The fact that he's distant is stressing me, and I don't feel it's right to ask him to put effort in again. I can't tell if he's doing it on purpose or if it's just the way he is at this point.

I only want him. I've tried to date other people when it seemed hopeless in between long months of no contact with him, but it always felt unfair to them because he's my number one interest. Even if I do try to date someone else right now, the instant he says he wants me I'll run to him.

I don't know what to do. Time will probably be the answer, but quite frankly I'm torn between giving him the benefit of the doubt and giving in to the hurt, stress, and confusion I feel. I won't take it out on him cause that would be unfair (or maybe I'm making up excuses for him now, idk) but I'm tempted just to stop putting effort in.

I've been very clear with him and he knows I want to be with him. Should I just not respond to him for a while and see if I matter enough for him to call?