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Alright so I sell panties and things of that nature online because me and my boyfriend are going through a tough time with money. I don't get much from it and I have a couple clients but not a lot. When it comes to this, it involves talking to men and creating the fantasy that I'm single and they have a chance. I'm not flirting with them and saying I wanna have sex but I often do a 😊 face and call them hun (only because I dont call my boyfriend hun and he doesn't call me that anymore so it's no harm). I do this in a respectful way because despite I'm doing this, I respect myself, my body and my man. All in all, seeing how I create this single persona, the men flirt and give me a bunch of compliments. What also comes with this gig is that I have to send sexy pics when they buy stuff so that brings more compliments.

Getting to the point, I'm starting to like the attention. My boyfriend doesn't really compliment me like in the beginning of the relationship. Which I get it, he was trying to "woo" me but now he got comfortable. I don't need the compliments but I like to hear that he appreciates me and acknowledges that I'm still here and still want to be wanted. I like the feeling of being wanted and desired and this gig gives me that. Should I feel bad for liking the attention and almost looking forward to emails from people because I want the compliments (not catching feels, I just like it)? Either way I'm not gonna stop this because despite it's a small gig, it's helping us eat. It's putting me one step closer to my greater goal. Opinions?

I’m 17 and he’s in his 20s so he’s quite young. I’m not gonna do anything obviously because I don’t want us to get in trouble and I wouldn’t go that far anyway.

I’ve really started to notice his looks and I think he’s lowkey really sexy, he has green eyes and brown hair. His body is on point too and he kind of has muscles.
I hate making eye contact with him because every time I look at him I think about kissing and having sex with him. I would actually let him do all sorts of things to me if we could.

it’s hard to try and not think about it but he’s the type to make eye contact with people and when he’s helping me I find myself really close to his face and have to look away because I cringe.
This really needs to stop because I’m also starting to have dreams about him which I know cannot happen anyways, I like boys my own age don’t get me wrong, but because I’m spending lessons with him it’s getting so intense.

Poll question: Is it bad that I’m trying to avoid him outside of lessons but at the same time I try to ask for more help just so I would look at him?