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I take nothing but crap out of life. I try to turn it around but I just get treated wrong or disrespected. I could stand it but not anymore. thought my life women have put me down and treated me like i was nothing. I'm not rich. im not tall i only come up to 5'6". im in college but im not that smart. most women I deal with don't like me and infact hate me. I get judged just because i don't meet their expectations. i was tought to be loving and kind and expect nothing in return. as a result of living this life stlye i hate myself I get no benifits out of life. i was tricked into thinking that if i did the right thing i would meet someone. this is a lie. women never consider personality I know this because it is all I have. all I wanted to do is beome a proper man and have a family. but I was robbed of this dream simply because I don't meet girls stands. for some reason all they do is lie to me and say ill meet someone. by their standards i am not a man and i will never be one. it feels like the more good I try to do the worst off my life gets. they won't let me be the hero even of my own story. I don't look like a man displayed on TV so i am not allowed the option. It feels like im cancer or i was ment to do wrong or hurt people. as much as i deny it I am starting to realize i should play along. it their society after all and thats the only option they give me as a human being. To me if I hurt enough people I can die in peace.