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My best guy friend - we'll call him "R" - and I have been friends for about 10 years now. We met in high-school, he's three years younger than me, and we have the same sense of humor, a lot of similar interests, lots of ways we work wonderfully together in most respects. We genuinely love each other (as best friends of 10 years are wo nt to do). Our conversations haven't gotten "deep", but we both enjoy the scientific discussions, and never really have a dull moment.

I had moved away from my hometown where he is to a different state for a few years, and we lost touch. When I came back about 2 years ago, we started hanging out again like we used to, with the addition of being 420 friends. During all this time we never so much as cuddled, and pursued our own relationships as normal, all failing miserably.

Fairly recently, I got out of a toxic 10-month relationship after finding out that the guy I thought might be close to my soul mate had been dating another girl for 7 of those 10 months. R had come over usually weekly just to chill during that relationship, and was someone I could relax around and be me.

Now, a few weeks after said breakup, I had been going over more often to not be alone and to smoke a bit of the emotional pain away. R said he had a question, he asked to have sex. We both confirmed neither of us are in any place for the drama of a relationship, but we don't want to have sex with some random stranger. So we did it. It was a little awkward at first, but as things started going it just keeps getting better. He does all the little things I've wanted in previous partners, without even having to mention it. He seems to be thoroughly enjoying my efforts, and has said so during on more than a few occasions. He caresses me when we cuddle, though it's subtle. We're both very subtle (it took 3 hours for either us to make a move AFTER deciding we did want to have sex).

Is he just trying to be a comforting friend when he knew I needed it?