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So there is one thing that has always made me curious... whether or not I'm adorable... I have full pale pinkish lips, long (down to my ribs) dirty blonde hair with very blonde strikes in it my hair is natural, I have dark brown eyes when I'm confused I'll like scrunch my eyebrows together and do like a duck face and when I'm embarrassed I'll hide my cheeks (because there most likely red from blushing) behind my fists, when I'm in humid air or I'm sweating cus I'm working out and My hair is up little baby hairs will like curl up around my face, I'm also very tan uhm my laugh consist of snorts and giggles and pure out haha type laughing I'm about five feet and four inches tall, I'm on a competitive swim team and so I've got an hour glass figure and a good size butt, and smallish boobs. I'm just really curious... am I? Or nah?

So, i'm not the most social attention craving person, actually i'm the complete opposite. But lately i have ended up asking myself one question: would anyone ever be interested in me?

I am aware of my huge physical and social flaws, which is not a good thing, cause it makes me so insecure, that i literally cannot go to a window without makeup on, and it takes me 4 hours to get ready for being seen by other people.

I KNOW i'm not over exaggerating, and here is a list of all that is wrong with me:

Physically
- i have a big nose
- dark circles around my eyes (real dark)
- fatty legs (otherwise i'm physically fit)
- too long jaw
- i need glasses
- weird hair
Other
- I have always had problems with my social issues. I am extremely nervous around other people, so i tend to stay away from them.
- I am actually not at all interested in "having friends" and normal stuff.

The Weird Stuff
- I have one real hobby, which is shooting at a gun range.
- I am weirdly interested about psychopathic serial killers :P
- I love brutal "realistic" "Horror"movies like the saw franchise
- I don't really have any moral codes or stuff like that.
- I've been to a lot of psychologists and no one can tell whats wrong with me.
- I'm super pessimistic and realistic at the same time.

Me:
- I listen to punk-rock, pop-punk, rock etc.
- I love to learn random stuff like lock picking
- I'm Finnish, and hating it.
- I cannot think of an ideal job that has no dead bodies, crimes or guns.
- In Finnish scale, i have a pretty high IQ
- I love all animals.
- I play guitar
- I'm really interested about psychology, criminology, and almost everything that ends with -logy.
- I LOVE tv network shows, my favorites are Hannibal, The Blacklist, Dexter and The Mentalist
- Mostly i hand out alone playing video games like Hitman or GTA, or i'm on a computer doing stupid stuff like this.

Well, i just wanted to know if there's still hope for me, i accept criticism.