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i’ve been friends with this guy for about 5 years, i was attracted to him as soon as he transferred to my school but he hadn’t noticed me. The same day he transferred a few others had too, his future girlfriend and i became friends that same year as well.

Throughout that year i really didn’t have any close friends and she didn’t either so i felt like we kinda leaned on each other and we were inseparable. The 2 people dated for a year until the girl left for another country and they spent about 4 more years dating long distance. They were a big deal at my school, everyone shipped them and they had accounts together. They broke up 2 months ago.

The thing is that the guy is now interested in me (i have a spy on the inside that has told me so) and i don’t know what to do. I’m attracted to him but then there’s also this past relationship with the girl. Even though the girl and I don’t actively talk at all and to be honest i didn’t really like her before, we were still friends and she still talks to me when it’s my birthday, my grad, tells me she misses me and just basic catching up things. I don’t know what to do!

I am in my late twenties and never been in a real relationship. The one guy I did date, I felt like I had to settle because no one better came around. He was a decent person but I wasn’t physically attracted to him. I was always under the impression that my lack of attraction from guys was because of my weight.

A few years later, I’m still thick but definitely smaller than what I was before. I don’t have friends so I have to use the apps to meet people and as you’d assume it’s a disaster. I mean I’m told I’m cute, some say pretty etc but I just can’t find a man. The ones I was physically attracted to only want sex and the ones that pursue me have decent personalities but they’re too short for my preference or just not attractive to me.

I see women often that are average or maybe heavier than me, with guys I find good looking, and really wonder how they were able to find them. I feel if I settled with any of the guys I mentioned I attract, I will always feel bothered at the fact that I can’t get the kind of man I really want. So that’s why I stay single, it seems permanent considering I’m only getting older and told myself this would improve as the years go by.