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I have been in a relationship ship with my boyfriend for almost 2 years. Now he is 14 years older then me but it wasn't until last year you could tell. We used to habe sex all the time every day. But about 6 months into our relationship he would tell me I want it to much. We did still habe sex even if twice a week however During the winter months he coachs and is really stressed and busy along with being tired so our time doesn't exist. But in November he got sick which led to the virus going to his heart finally in February he was in the hospital for heart problems but released and undergoing cardio care since. Everyday he is getting better and being told by the cardio Dr just how much progress he has made and how he can live his life however when it comes to sex it doesn't exist and hasn't for almost 7 months because of everything and doesn't even come up.. even though for me I was always the more sexual person and I crave sex multiple times a day everyday and have been told by him before it's on my mind to much its been hard for me but I have adapted and I understand with the fears from the recent health issues etc but for me just going out on a date and not getting a compliment or him even truly looking at me like he wants me, or even when just a simple kiss doesn't exist it's just a peck and hugs don't exist to laying in bed he doesn't touch me and I don't mean dirty but just truly touch me I don't know how to feel. I hurt... physically, emotionally, and mentally. I talk to him but he doesn't want to hear it... tonight I explained I had a lot on my mind and am hurting and his response is oh here we go and he rolls over to go to sleep. I feel such a detachment in every way yet I am so in live with him. Am I losing it? I love this man with my whole heart but I hurt and I know he's going through a lot but I'm there every step of the way, every appt. And feel all I ask for is to see the love he says he has for me. I fell horrible and that maybe I'm being selfish. But I