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My depression started 4 years ago and continued for 2 years. In that time, I had a deep hatred for myself, I began to self harm about 1 year after it started. I had nobody, and whenever I tried to reach out to people, they only gave up on me, called me a whiner or weak, or just ignored me entirely. I even contemplated suicide. After 2 years passed, I finally overcame my depression. I then looked back at all the times I reached out, all the people that made me feel how I felt about myself, and I became so unspeakably furious that I went completely berserk and swore that I would make every last one of them pay for what they did. For months, I was unimaginably hostile towards anyone and everyone who I felt was a factor in my depression. Which is pretty much everyone, period. I was in a constant state of being on edge, even the slightest provocation and I could kill them right there in front of everyone. Yet, few people were getting the message, I knew it was time to make an example out of someone. So I followed one of the bullies to the bathroom during lunch and slammed his face into the wall as hard as I could and proceeded to punch his face and stomp his head into the ground. I then said "Spread the word". Safe to say, they learned their lesson. At that point, all those people who'd gone out of their way to fuck me over knew I was dead serious about making them pay for what they did to me. I live with scars on my arms and thighs because of them, I almost killed myself because of them, as such, they all deserved what I did to all of them. A good tip to you guys is if someone's bullying you, make them see their own blood, and they'll never mess with you again. With all of that out of the way, have you ever been depressed?