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This girl and I were best friends from 7th grade through senior year. We were both social outcasts at school and got bullied - hell we went to prom together as friends (no we didn’t date lol we are both straight) just super socially awkward. We had a lot of fights but also a lot of good memories. We kept fighting and said a lot of nasty things to each other and broke off our friendship shortly after senior year ended and didn’t speak to each other for 10 months. She contacted me in August of last year and we decided to give it another go. Since we both had no friends and we’re bored sitting at home and going to work. It was fine for a few weeks but then we kept fighting and name calling and threatening each other almost every day. We got into a major blowout on a trip we took for a concert in October. After the concert she said she didn’t want to be friends anymore and that our relationship is too toxic. We fight more then we get along and we fight when we aren’t out doing things. We have similar interests but it just didn’t work out. She changed her cell phone number but I know her house phone number. We haven’t spoke since October. Today, I saw her relatives and they said hi to me and smiled but had a look on their face like sympathy or something it was weird. I currently haven’t had a job in over a month and have been sitting at home day in and day out and I’m about to lose it (I’ve applied to several jobs but nobody will call me back). I have nobody else except my parents and it’s pathetic. I live out in the boon docks too so there’s nothing around to do and I don’t have much money. Her parents would probably answer the phone and recognize my voice if I called and asked for her. I don’t even know if she’d wanna talk to me. What do I even say?

Since I was young my family never trust me even if I have been a good daughter. I studied hard, graduate honors and even have good jobs.

Since I was young, my family prohibited me going out especially late at night. And, whenever I do they always yelled at me and worst my dad beat me up and have major bruises. I grow very shy person because they never expose me to people.

I never had boyfriend of my entire life due to my family strictness until such time I met foreign man. I know he really loves me but he had an international historical record of stealing money 5 years ago. When my learned about it, they immediately destroyed our relationship and even if I told them not to touch him. They ask cops to arrest him for such crime. They even want to make false accusations such as raping which is not true. But I didn't support to them and that makes them more mad at me.
My innocent best friend was also scolded by my family and they destroyed our friendship.

My family is now getting worse. They grounded me , destroyed my door, steal my computer and cellphone and spying all my messages, I cannot go out at house and making Me like a Maid. They have invaded my personal privacy. Even if I stop meeting my boyfriend, they don't believe in me and worst they want me to stop working. I don't want to stop working because this is only my source of income and to be honest I can really live alone. They already destroyed everything my relationship, friendship and now my work?

If I leave home, my foreign boyfriend dont have anymore money and I am afraid my dad will ask for arrest him or worst kill him. That is why I allowed myself being disrespected by my own family.

If I leave I was also thinking about my boyfriend. What If my family would ask police to arrest or kill him. Especially that he don't have any place to transfer because he don't have money.

What should I do?, please advise