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The Apple update may play in this text, sorry. Anyways there’s this boy that had my attention for theee years now. At the time he was a junior in HS and i was a freshmen in HS. he was my close friends brother and even now i still do care.
he gave me little signs like this
being fidgetty
looking back when he noticed i had seen him staring
looked at me when my back was turned
challenged me in some ways
was impressed by my smarts.
anyways i has only seen him once a week and finally it stopped. My father found out i had liked him and called me a ‘w****’. He really took it out on me but i let it be but he took it out on this boy.
he made fun of him to his face etc and honestly began to feel awkward.
i made him brownies and stuff and he had been hiding his smile and giggles. He was having an issue calling me something when he said thanks. He even winked a little on another occasion as he tried hiding his shy smile.
recently i had found out he liked another girl for a couple of years naturally my feelings felt hurt. His sister who is my best friend really told my friend that she sensed that my dad hates their family and he isn’t fond of her brother. I feel even worse now, i feel like it’s my fault. She said that doesn’t think there is a chance due to all this drama and what i assume as the girl being a part. Really and truly now i feel stuck. Even if he did like me he would fear my father most and that would be it. I’d love to talk to him and become close friends but now i see so much tensions. What should i do? How do you think he feels of me? He’s I️ College now and I’m almost done with HS.