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We were argueing over my future as I told her I wanted to quit dancing.. and she has done dancing for so long as has made me do dancing since 3.
Problem is, that I don't mind dancing but I go to a class and no one talks to me there and they've known me since 3 and I used to be shy so they see me as shy so I'm to scared to actually socialize with them.
They also preassure me.
I also do air force cadets on fridays which is SO STRESSFUL
st johns on mondays not too bad
AND I JUST MOVED SCHOOLS DUE TO REALLY REALLY BAD BULLYING.

I feel like there are so many changes in my life at the moment and I just can't think and well I admitted to my mum that I don't really like dancing and It just doesn't suit me.. but she got really mad and I want to join drawing class next year and a theatre group.. but she just said you don't even know if you like it.

and she's getting mad at me for all these changes.. but I just want to find something that works.. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up... but I know that its not dancing... and I was only doing it cause my mum liked it... but its something I get so anxious about and don't even have friends there.

Air force is something I wanted to do but lost interest as I am scared of planes... and camps..
I've done drawing and singing since 5 and practice all the time but I'm only at an average level so it isn't fair.

We were argueing more and my mum said "Well maybe you should of chose a better mother then" ..

which hurt a lot.. at the time it felt like what if I just killed myself or ran away.. is this my final day.. is this what really fks up my family forever. what is wrong with me and now mum just refuses to talk to me... I just really don't want to live her dream... and never know mine... and I have never done school homework due to all these activities after school blocking up my mind.

I met my boyfriend 4.5 months ago whom I find to be as career oriented as I am and shares the same interests & visions as I have. Things went well since then.

Before I go for more details I need to mention the dating scene here where I live does need you to state you're exclusive otherwise you're free to fool around. At that time I was seeing someone I had been crazy about for so long but it was going nowhere in the end. As for him he broke up 3 weeks before we met. Hence 2 weeks after we met he asked if I was seeing someone else and he asked to be exclusive, I accepted. I only broke up with the other guy 3-4 weeks after. He was well aware of it and understood my situation.

The main problem here is that I'm moving to another country soon. (He's not from where I'm from). He initially did plan to move out of the country as well next year but there was no fixed plans yet.
2 months after we got exclusive he decided he wants to pursue this relationship further and go with me to where I'm moving, which to be fair is closer to his home country. I kept questioning his decision but he was very sure he wants to do it as according to him it's not going to mess up his career etc as he was planning to move out anyway.

Lately I have been making a huge fuss and picked fights because I'm questioning his decision and I honestly think he's desperate. I'm running out of time as I'm moving out next month and I'm getting more and more anxious about whether to continue this relationship or not.
Is he desperate or am I just being paranoid? I have a history of messing up my relationship I don't want to go through that again.