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It depresses me that I don't have the desire to have sex with anyone. I would like to have a healthy relationship with someone but I feel broken. I still get romantic feelings for women every now and then but sex is never attached to it. I just want to love and build a future with someone and share our lives together.

Women have always left me in the past because they feel like I have no passion. They feel unwanted and undesired. Being in a relationship with me was described as "torture" which I think was exaggerated. They said I'm a wonderful guy which made it hard for them to break up with me.

I just want so much to be normal. I want to love someone completely. My lack of sexual attraction towards people makes women feel like a best friend. I want to change but something in the pit of my stomach tells me this is just how I am and I have to accept it even if it comes with many broken hearts and failed relationships.

I hope you have some answers for me because I'm fresh out.

So to start off lemme tell u some back ground info. I know this girl named Taylor (Tay for short) I've known her for about 3 years now, and the first day i met her I fell in love. I can't really describe the feeling i got except that i loved her... So about 1 1/2 years after i met her i told her how i felt, she told me she "doesn't feel exactly the same way But things could change." Now being the worrisome guy i am I thought it was completely over at that point, But she did things i didn't except, She stared at me from across the room at get together and the like, and I remember I was with some friends and she was with me, she sat in the back seat with me and me and her just starred at each other for like 10 seconds straight, till I HAD to look away... (she was just to pretty i guess) We took group photos and she would grab my hand and pull me close to her when we did, she also would walk outside and look behind her kinda to tell me to walk with her, she would wave her hand to gesture for me to walk next to her... then she stopped all of a sudden, and her brother told me she didn't like me... she according to her friends she was seeing another guy this lasted for about 3 months... then she came back... and keep in mind those 3 months were very very stressful... So she came back, and she would seem to jokingly threaten me, tell me she was gonna beat me up hit me etc. But she told me to read a story of hers once (shes a writer soo) this story was about love and her being with her husband and them spending time together ( i summed it up cause i have about 400 characters left) So when i mentioned she put the word U instead of you she got really really close, like 1 inch from my face I was sitting in a chair and she kinda leaned over my shoulder... but at times that day I would catch her looking at me then she would look out the window of the car, she also bought me frys from MD's But I NEED to know, should I keep her... Even though her friends say she doesn't like me?