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Ex of an emotional message: "I don't understand why you did that? It really hurt when I found out you told someone else about our conversation because it was so intimate. I thought I could trust you with anything-- I guess it's my fault for letting my guard down to someone like you. I just wish you would explain what was going through your head?"

I tend to overreact and go crazy at the guy I'm seeing. Today I think I've finally done it and wrecked everything. I get jealous and paranoid but I've never actually told him why I behave the way I do. It's not just because I'm some psycho girlfriend there really is reasons. But I've never admitted them out loud only ever in my head, so I'm scared to tell him because it means letting my guard down.

My insecurities have ruined my thing with him and it's all because I'm scared of losing him or I feel myself starting to get happy and I wreck it before it could even begin.

Do you think I should wait a few days and let everything cool down between us. Would you forgive somebody like me or would it be too hard to handle?

Naturally I'm a very sweet girl, however throughout my years in school I've noticed that sometimes people will disrespect me becsuse they dont think I'll put them I'm their place because I'm so nice. That's how all the fights I've ever gotten into starts. I know how to fight because I grew up with an older brother and I hate fighting, however it seems like sometimes the only way people will respect me or leave me alone is when I punch them in the face. Because every time a girl tries to bully me and I eventually end up hitting her she leaves me alone and never bothers me again. Its like telling people to stop isn't enough!! . .. My bff Jamie told me to start being mean to people. she's mean to people and the crazy part about it is they always come back for more, however people do not feel comfortable letting their guards down around her. People never call her on the phone crying or telling her how they feel. They call me. . . People always come to me with their problems, I'm the friend that gives people comfort and security when they can't give it to themselves. And I love that people are comfortable enough to be themselves around me because I have been judged and bullied in the past for being myself. I know how it feels to be judged for being in you own skin so I would never want to make anyone esle feel like that. But at the same time people never disrespect my friend. They never think twice about crossing her and they always follow her around. Should I start being mean to people or show them the real me but at the risk of them thinking they can take advantage of me and walk all over my kindness. ?