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First of all I should point out that she is not the same girl I fell in love with 2 years ago & I no longer feel the same way about her. I have noticed changes in her behaviour & temperment, negative ones with her lashing out & becoming more & more aggressive as time has progressed. She has been aggressive to both me, her family members, her friends & other people & it is definitely getting worse. I have tried to speak to her & help her with her behavioural issues but she is in complete denial about it. Furthermore I have been punched, slapped, threatened & had things thrown at me which is why I decided enough is enough & decided it was time to end the relationship.

I sat her down & told her I was breaking up with her. She started crying & ran out of the living room with tears streaming down her face. I thought she was going to the bedroom to cry but she quickly came back into the living room carrying a large kitchen knife. I jumped out of my seat & put my hands up instinctively but I was backed into a corner. She put the 10 inch kitchen knife right up to my throat so the blade was touching my adam's apple & threatened to kill me if I left her. Out of fear I retracted what I said & agreed that we can stay together. I was so scared I had tears running down my cheeks & when she lowered the knife I let her have sex with me because I was scared.

I am also worried about the fact she owns a handgun & hides it from me. I have only seen her gun once when she came back from the shooting range which she goes to on Monday & Thursday evenings. Her dad is a ballistics specialist in the Army so he has had her shooting guns since she was 11 years old. He is the last person I want to piss off by dumping her but since she threatened to kill me with the knife on Friday night, I have been unable to close my eyes or sleep at night with her lying in the bed next to me. I am absolutely petrified that she will stab or shoot me if I try to leave her again or upset he