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I need some opinions on what I'm going thru!! Please help! So my fiance an I have been together for almost 4 years. We have been through it a few times an we broke up for a month 2 years ago. I thought that we had over come everything and that we were both on the same page. About 9 months ago I hurt my back at work. I was off work for 9 months. I couldn't walk for a little while an it was very stressful. I gained a lot of weight because I couldn't do anything and I was really depressed. About a week before I was to return from work my fiance tells me that he isn't in love with me anymore and it's because of my weight gain. I'm completely devastated! The whole time I was off work he was really mean to me. I don't understand how he could be so cold hearted to me. I don't know what to do or how to deal with everything. I think he has been cheating on me but I can't prove it. I have my whole heart sunk into our relationship and I feel so worthless an my self esteem is totally gone. What would you do if this was you? How do guys hide messages from other girls on there phone? I just want to slap him and shake him until he realizes that I have had his back no matter what. An to have him shit on me when I am at my most vulnerable point in my life is so devastating.