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We were about to be good friends like he would sit next to me everyday and talk. But I treated him horribly. Like extremely rude probably because I realized I liked him. So he kinda distant himself which I don’t blame. But still considered me his friend. I later told him I like him he didn’t like me back. So I told him that I accepted that and got over it because I don’t want to lose our friendship. So we still talk but like not daily and mostly over text.

Now months later, I see him glancing and staring at my from a distance like all the time everyday. Whenever I look at him, he looks away. Sometimes he stare a second longer. He also try to listen to my conversations with other people. Like legit stare at me as I talk to other people but never approach me to talk. I tried approaching him once. He was so quiet, didn’t even look at me in the eye. Only looked at me when we were talking. I know he still cares about me because he showed and told me many times. Yet, it seems like he so shy. He just look at me but never approach me. Even I still get awkward approaching him because of what happened in the past but I thought he wanted to talk to me? So I texted him and the next day. At first he was still shy, but then all of sudden he had this confidence to come up to me and he was smiling the entire time. I was like okay so he doesn’t hate me. We went back to our normal friends groups and I saw him talking to a girl he was laughing and smiling with her. I was trying to ignore it by paying attention to my friend and we all started laughing at my joke and I saw him looking at us with this face that I don’t understand and then he went back to whatever he was doing. Also every day at the end of the class when it’s just the two of us remaining. I say goodbye to my teacher and I see him looking until I left. Like?

He is a confident guy but with me he never initiates conversations and stares/glances at me all the time