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Just recently I’ve felt like me and my boyfriend haven’t connected. We haven’t had sex or kissed in the past two and a half weeks because I was sore and my lip flared up from picking at it sorry if too much info. Just recently he texted me asking me how he was supposed to put pto in to not come into work because he slept late. The way he asked me he seemed demanding about getting the answer as if I needed to work on his time. Like it’s not my fault you were late to work. So he called me later that day and FaceTime me and I didn’t say much on the phone. About a hour after us being on the phone it talking be hung up without saying anything and I immediately texted back asking why he hung up he could’ve at least said okay I’m hanging up. He didn’t answer me from 11 pm that night to 3 pm the next day. I was for sure he left me on read and wasn’t sure how he could be asleep that long he was just posting on Facebook earlier that morning. So I texted him back and called and he finally answered. Turned out he was still sleep around 3 pm. So I hung up and said I would talk to him later. I was fed up because I hadn’t heard from him. I blocked him to give him his own medicine because he said if he texts someone and they don’t respond after a while he blocks them. So I did just that and to let him know that I was upset. When we argued he said he was sick of this. So basically I eventually unblocked him after a day or two and he seemed to not wanna get with me. He said find god and come back other than that stay gone. He calls me ma and told me yesterday that he misses me and that he still has love for me and loves me. He texts me everyday. He told me I’m hot. But when I asked if we could get back together he said he doesn’t want to be in a relationship right now. What is this supposed to mean? What should I do? I don’t have time to be led on either. You either want to get back or not. Should. I talk to him about it one more time before I emotionally detach?

SO, I’d like to preface this by saying my boyfriend has always known about all of this. Everything has been communicated to the best of my ability. I just can’t shake the guilt.

i used to post a lot on here about my ex, who I thought I loved. Truth be told, he manipulated me, gaslit me and made me feel less than human. Even once told me to k*ll myself. During our relationship, there came a point where the only way he’d want me around was for sex. In an abusive relationship, you obviously feel the need to keep them, so I did what I needed to do. Usually out of fear that he would’ve left. That lasted for 1 year, and then for 2.5 additional after we broke up, because he never left me alone.
March 2020, I meet my current boyfriend, I’m happier than I’ve ever been, and my ex has apologized and we’re semi-okay just because we have mutual friends and I still carried a lot of trauma — was 18 when I met him, am 23 now.
about 4 or so months into my relationship my ex starts to send me sexual texts, to which I would either respond “haha yeah we can’t do that anymore” or ignore that entirely. But he was persistent. And I would see him on occasion because of our friends. He’d always ask to touch me, and it would take a lot of goading and a lot of me saying no, so there were times I said yes, only for him to put a hand on me and then for me to run away. then he would text me about it, say how much he missed me and my body, and I was afraid that if I didn’t say it back, we wouldn’t be friends anymore. So I answered, very vaguely, never sexting in return. But after much therapy, I had the strength to cut him off. Because he was making me uncomfortable. My boyfriend always knew about all of this, and he always said that he saw me as a victim of abuse by my ex who had developed a trauma bond, and I never engaged too heavily (that I can remember — I’ve shut most of this time out). But I still feel like my boyfriend should be mad. Am I a terrible person for allowing this?