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I've been in only one relationship before... And it ended pretty horribly so I must not know how to be a proper girlfriend yet. But anyways, this is my story so far.

Me and this guy got together on discord after meeting each other for a few days... I don't know why but I guess we really hit it off. He was the one to be shy whenever we met and friended each other. He came to the group chat I was on because he liked another girl which is my online bestfriend. I ain't going to say names because I don't know who's reading this...

So, anyways. Me and my friend did a reverse tug of war around him because we both cared so much about each other and how the other was feeling. And everytime I texted him... I just felt guilty until something happened. He thought my friend was married, so he asked me if I wanted to be his girlfriend. I responded with a yes...

The thing was that I couldn't manage to text him... Being way too shy. That's just how I am in a relationship for the first part. And he told me he was upset one time... But it was pretty vague so I had to keep trying to pick up on what he'd said.

That was until soon I told my other online friend who'm I trusted his word ever since the first time, he was gay. And I know people of all sexualities so I ain't meaning anything against it! Many gay people that I know are always so happy and fun to be around. So I didn't feel guilty going to him because I knew that he only cared about me as a friend.

And that's where I got my confidence to speak to my partner about all of this and apologize... And I do apologize a lot. Especially online because the first time you meet me is actually how I really am. I'm way too submissive and happy and... Caring also clingy. But it doesn't seem like he's going to open up... I've searched up so many things on how to help my boyfriend feel happy and all the stuff I could think about for dating. He seems to still like my Bestfriend which I still ship. What did I do wrong? Please tell me...

Why hasn't my coworker asked me out if I've worked THERE For like 3-4 MONTHS NOW?
He seems quiet and shy. I am too. But i got the impression he's shyer than me which a very rare.

Anyway since the beginning and even now, I've seen this look in his eyes at times which is very deep and emotional... When he looks at me/into my eyes. Its not like a look a guy has ever given to me. he's very gentle as a person. I am too. I think he sees into me deeply. When he gives me that look i feel like he's reaching deep into my eyes. And seeing my soul or what is going on inside me not necessarily in that moment but in general how my soul is.

He also seems kinda protective at times... i could be imagining it thoguh.