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So there's this guy I met on a dating app 1 week ago
He wanted to meet last week
So we met up for coffee

But I didn't find him physically attractive
And he was arrogant too
So I didn't really talk as much to him
And told him sorry and that I need to leave
So I left and went to the station to go home

And then he messaged me full rude messages like:
- "youre such a fucking stuck up bitch"
- "youre ugly anyway"
"Youre a short bitch"
"Youre a fat bitch.. stop being stuck up"
"Im glad I ran away from you.. ugly short bitch"
Etc

And I told him off so bad as well
And then I blocked him on the app

And then he made a new account this week and found me and then kept messaging rude things again like the above

And then today he apologized saying:
"Hey friend, sorry for my behavior, I didn't mean to be rude, maybe I didn't look my best that day, maybe we should give this another chance?"

What the f is wrong with this guy? Lmao😂😂
Is he being genuine about it?

I have a feeling its a trick lol
So he can meet me again and do something bad to me

So I’ve been single for pretty much my entire life. And I’m in my mid twenties. I didn’t think I was attractive until I lost weight and took an interest in improving my physical appearance. However, I’m complimented on how I look, before and after losing weight, which tells me that I can’t be that ugly if people give me decent feedback. When I told a few people that I was single (after they asked), it either resulted in: a) they’re assuming I’m picky and am single by choice or b) feeling sorry for me and blaming the guys for not noticing me. I don't know what to say. I don’t have any friends so going out and meeting people is out of the question. Wherever I work, most of the men are married. Which is why I have a dating profile to possibly meet people but it hasn’t worked out well. The guys that message me I don’t like and some that seemed hopeful generally end up either no longer messaging me or I lose interest. What’s the issue here?

Higher love, as in... let's say your significant other ignores you, and tries to control you and doesn't care to get to know you, judges you a lot and treats you with hate BUT in your mind there is a "higher love" that cares about you, doesn't ignore you and pays attention to what you like and what you say, doesn't judge you and is kind about how to guide you/teach you the way of love...

I don't know... some times I feel like my religion is "crazy". I am a Christian. My mom/sister and other mean people at school used to say terrible things to me, and do terrible things to me. I used to go into this "la la land" where there is this God in heaven that cares for me and is loving towards me. He is kind to me, is patient with me and teaches me wisdom. It's all in my head though. But when reality hits, it's hard and painful. My mom hates me. She judges me every thing I do is wrong. I am ugly and worthless to her. Reality really hurts, so I go back to my "la la land" where this higher love loves me.

Is that crazy? I've been doing this with my husband as well. He ignores me, doesn't pay attention to me and gets angry at me for pointing that out (he doesn't know my favorite food or my favorite animal but I know his). He cares little for my feelings (but I care about his and what he wants). So I pretend it's ok that he treats me terrible and abuses me a lot, because I am loved by this higher love.

Is that crazy? But it keeps me from going insane. It keeps me from depression I guess. It keeps me from hating people, and it keeps me from divorce and doing hateful things to myself or God.