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Just going to get right to it, I'm not attractive. I have acne, and a pretty good amount of it. Nothing the dermatologist throws at me works. I'm skinny, I workout, but I barely see any improvment. It's very hard for me to gain muscle. Im short, that's it. I also have orange-gold hair, and I occasionally get made fun of for being a ginger. Basically, I got fucked by genetics and puberty. So, the reason I'm telling you all my insecurities, is because it's really affecting my mental health. I'm a senior in highschool and I know I'm young but I'm so desperate for a girlfriend or at least a girl to like me. My confidence is super low also, I feel like people only look at my acne and that's how I'm defined, that kid with a lot of acne. The past 4 years have been hell for me, and I've been so lonely the past 2 years. I've suggested lowering my standards a bit, but it's not like I can like someone I'm not attracted to. Over the summer I worked with the most beautiful girl ever and surprisingly I got a date with her at the the end of the summer, after a few dates, she called it off and wanted to stay friends. I accepted her decision of course, but it hurt me a lot and is still hurting me. I kinda got off topic but do girls really care about those things?