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Me and my boyfriend been together for around 7 months now. I have been hurt before by my ex and this created trust issues. I have been guarded up for first few months during our relationship but I have been opening up to him more. Yes we have been intimate for these past 2 months and it is going well. But I do have some doubts though I dont know if its just my insecurities taking over. I have been thinking about the following:
- he is quite fit and likes to take care of himself. I have let myself go for this past year so not motivated to go back to the gym. He has told me to come gym with him so now I feel insecure and thought about how maybe he wants a fit and better looking girl than me. I have told him this but he said "I want you to look after yourself but I still want to be with you" but I keep thinking Im not good enough for him and that he can find a better looking girl than me.
- Im not sure if its because of my birth control pills but I have been very moody at the moment and been quite depressed, keep thinking about how my life is unstable at the moment. Also, I keep thinking maybe Im not emotionally stable for a relationship. I do care and have strong feelings for my boyfriend but I kind of hate myself and I dont know if I can ever love someone if I dont love myself? Sometimes I doubt him when he says "i love you so much" but he has shown through his actions and efforts that he does care for me. When we had a massive argument, I was at a breaking point where I wanted to leave but he did fight for our relationship. I tend to give up on people easily and I know its not a good thing.
So I am confused. I dont know whether if these are good enough reasons to break up? Or maybe its just my insecurities? I care about him so much and I just don't want to hurt the both of us.

so i really like this guy. tried dating freshmen year but i had zero free time bc of competitions plus studying. i felt bad and i think he didn't believe me and thought i was jut blowing him off. i didn't really try to convince im bc when someone is set on not believing you its futile. we had hard distance for several months. now that im no longer in competitions i tend to be around my friends more, even if its just studying. after a while i relaxed he's around more and more in the back ground. now we are talking together and almost hung out alone a few times. ( we have both asked each other to hang pt at bad times... doesn't help with confusion)

i AM interested in getting back together but i had this idea wed just go really slo as friend and see where it goes. so hed have time to trust me. BUT i dont think its going it work unless i say something. i think we hit this weird plateau where neither of us really are sure whats up.

we are not strangers so its not like im just asking some random dude in a date. and being friends desiring him as more is getting weird and he's started to act frustrated... i do want to go slow but i suppose we can be together and go slow.

do you think hed know by now if he wanted to be with me. should i ask if he does or just continue being friends and explain all of this?