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So I've been living with my partner for about 7 months now. I separated from my ex-wife about 18 months ago and with the separation I lost my job, and with the pandemic I lost the job I got after that. Having been married a long time and having moved around the country I don't really have any friends. My partner has a good social life and a great job. As lockdown has been coming to an end and life returning to normal her behaviour has been changing a lot and it's been making me anxious and insecure which is probably making things worse. Our relationship began with her looking at me with big eyes, texting and sexting a lot, complimenting me all the time, wanting to have lots of sex and being adventurous.

During the lockdown, I started my own business and it's keeping me afloat but not a good living, she's gone back to work and I sit in the house largely passing time cleaning and exercising. We go out with her friends and I get on with them but then when she goes out without me I have nothing to do myself. She's doesn't compliment me anymore, sometimes ignores my messages especially the flirty kind, doesn't seem interested in sex at all anymore and has this look that screams not into doing anything adventurous when it's suggested. I feel like she now sees me as a loser, but on the flip side she wants to go on holiday with me and her family in a couple of weeks but I feel like it might be to keep up appearances for them. The more I try to talk to her the more she moves away from me and then I worry more and more.

When we met I had a job before the lockdown took it, I was also dating multiple people which she knew, I guess I looked attractive and confident then and I don't now, I feel like her dog sat around waiting for her to come home.

In my scenario, my ex broke up with me after 3 years and is asking me where do we stand. We reached out on a call after one week of no contact. I'm too angry to decide because she went on tinder few days after and kissed a guy which she says she feels uncomfortable. I was disgusted and she says I gave her reason to do that because of emotional abuse or disregard her emotions in the relationship which I'm confident I listen fully and act like a psychologist. Every person recommends I should be a pyschologist of my good advice and listening. However my ex thinks I'm the worst for advice and I should be upset and react exaggeratively about a situation with her whereas I'm calm and optimistic person. I am angry at of our infrequent sex so sometimes I get a bit moody to be honest which wouldn't anybody if constantly rejected? Anyway I am considering coming back and fix everything but she is making everything my fault. But once we talked, she gave me 30+ reasons not a few why I'm horrible person and why she's hurt. And when I try communicate she shuts me off "no excuse". She also considers I need to therapy for my past behaviour. I honestly haven't done anything bad, I'm just like every couple with few arguments and maybe listen 90%. She throws keywords like gaslighting etc. Do you think I'm bad person or she is or are we both messed up?