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My male friend just admitted while drunk to developing feelings for me during our HS years. After that incident, he has become distant. He's online but doesn't speak to me as much like before.

I really have no romantic feelings for him. Kissing him would feel like kissing a brother. I'm just wondering if I can ever get my old friendship back? I've known him since 4th grade; that's a lot of history. It would suck losing a good friend. I just want things back the way they were. Can we go back to friendship again like before?

We met by him adding me on Facebook - we had friends in common that implied a horse rinding background. We got talking, and we just got on really well, and he was open and honest with me and asked me out on a first date.

We met up, we talked about everything from his previous relationships and marriage, to his addictions and time in prison. He talked about his career and his friends, about future plans over the next few years and joking about popping the question. I teased him by slightly pulling down my top so he could see my cleavage and his eyes widened and locked focus on them and he stood up to get a coffee and said "someone's pleased to meet you" and pointed to the outline in his jeans lol. We were at the pub for about 5 and a half/6 hours, and then he came back to mine. Accidentally met my dad and brother (thought they would be in bed!) and he stayed over at mine. He said "if it's okay, I don't want to do anything. I want to go slow and get it right, I have a history of rushing into things". (The insecure crazy female in me wonders if this was a nice way to say eww) We didn't kiss or have sex, we just cuddled together. We were up until about 3am.
Come morning, we watched TV in bed together for a few hours and I took him home about lunchtime. We both have health conditions and he needed to get home to take medicine and he said he was going to get some sleep and message me later. He hugged me and said he had a good time and we were very mature and proud of us. I gave him a kiss on the lips goodbye. And I left him be to get some rest.

I messaged him this morning because he left his vape liquid here and did he want me to bring it over. He said no thanks, I feel better how are you? And it's back to silence.

Do any of you have and advice on how to act and any inklings on how he feels? We were both full of excitement and couldn't stop talking to each other before we met; he was abused by his past couple of relationships so I don't wanna be a crazy woman!