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There's this guy in my class who I think is hot. One day I wanted to text him, but I didn't have his number so I just dm him even though we have never talked in real life. Instead of just telling him that I like him, I got this fake excuse that he could be written in the school newspaper. It's not really fake bc I am on the newspaper and I could write a piece on him. He texted back in under a minute really happy and I felt bad. I requested to follow his account and he accepted, but didn't follow back. That really annoyed me so I unfollowed him real quick. To make it worse I found his snapchat and added him. Feeling dumb again, I took back my friend request only finding out after that he will still see it. So like three days later he added me back on snapchat and to this day he's one of the first viewers of my story. The only reason i added him was because I caught him staring at me through the window one day that made me believe that I had a shot w/ him. I think I have caught him looking at me in class. Once my friend and I came out of the dining hall and there's was a fire drill and he was outside, my eyes instantly found him staring at me, but then he looked away. His arms folded, does that mean anything? I might just be wasting my time because he said he "probably" wouldn't date girls of others races, but then tried to deny it later saying "I'm not saying I wouldn't one." I don't know what to do considering I am part of another race. Do you think he thinks I'm a stalker since I just added him snapchat w/o him giving me his username? What should I do?

Okay so there is this guy in my class who I thought was hot. He's a senior and I'm a junior. One day I wanted to text him, but I didn't have his number so I just dm him even though we have never talked in real life. Instead of just telling him that I like him, I got this fake excuse that he could be written in the school newspaper. It's not really fake bc I am on the newspaper and I could write a piece on him. He texted back in under a minute really happy and I felt bad. I requested to follow his account and he accepted, but didn't follow back. That really annoyed me so I unfollowed him real quick. To make it worse I found his snapchat and added him. Feeling dumb again, I took back my friend request only finding out after that he will still see it. So like three days later he added me back on snapchat and to this day he's one of the first viewers of my story. I feel so dumb. The only reason i added him (besides the fact that I thought he was cute) was because I caught him staring at me through the window one day that made me believe that I had a shot w/ him. I think I have caught him looking at me in class. Once am friend and I came out of the dining hall and there's was a fire drill and he was outside, my eyes instantly to find him and when they did I found him looking then nonchalant look away arms folded. I don't know what to do. I might just be wasting my time because he said he "probably" wouldn't date girls of others races, but then tried to deny it later saying "I'm not saying I wouldn't one." I don't know what to do considering I am part of another race. Do you think he thinks I'm a stalker since I just added him snapchat w/o him giving me his username? What should I do?

My friend has feelings for me but I can't see him that way. I never will and even though he knows that he still tells me every single day how awesome and perfect I am and how sad he is for not having a chance to become my boyfriend. Normally when things turn out like that, you end the friendship and continue with your life. But I can't. He is depressed I can't leave him. I can't tell him that I would never want him to be my boyfriend. I can't reject him because I know that I will completely tear apart his already broken heart. However this whole condition chokes me. Last week I met a guy, we had been talking for a while and decided to go out on a date. Of course he learnt it and came crying to me telling me how much it hurt him, asking me how I could do this to him and go out with another guy when I know his feelings about me.

I haven't hung out with another guy since then. For his sake I cut out with everyone just so he has someone to listen to his problems, to hung out with, to make him laugh. Just so he has someone to remind him that he is not as worthless as he think he is. But I can't breath anymore. This is all too much for me. I'm stuck with someone who will never be enough for me. If I end things between us he will cut off his wrists but I can't do this anymore. I'm miserable I feel like I am his captivate. Every time someone asks me to go with them I feel like his hands close tightly around my neck. With no breath you can't answer, you can't say yes. I feel like I'm wasting my life, I'm not living just existing. I'm crying every night in my sleep. I can't hung out with anyone, I can't have fun, I can't have a boyfriend, I can't live my life the way I want to. I will never be able to end things between us, how will I sleep with myself when I know that he spends his nights crying himself to sleep because of me? I have prevented him from cutting yet the one who's about to commit suicide is me. I don't know what to do anymore.