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Hey!
So. I guess I'll set the scene?
There's this guy... He's 16, I'm 17, but he doesn't seem to care about the age difference. I don't care, personally. Anyways, not this past Christmas but the one before, we were at a party. We had been planning the moment. My sister covered our tracks and we snuck outside. It was snowing, he was warm. This was basically the most romantic moment of my life. So... When he went in for the kiss, I dodged. It was really embarrassing because I didn't really do it on purpose. It just happened? And I felt so bad. Even now my tummy twists thinking about it. Ahh poor baby...
So, basically I want to know if I should ask him to kiss me again. I know that he had feelings for me for a long time, and every time now that it seems like I'm flirting or making a move he gets excited. Haha Uh so yeah.
The last time we were together was at church and I showed him a back door for sneaking out. He got all flirty and all "Nice job Hannah." We had just been standing in a pitch dark room and he was holding my waist because I was walking towards the door. (I'm more familiar with the building layout than he is)
Sorry for the long story, I just want you guys to understand how we are. We're pretty blunt with each other. I'm thinking I would say "I really need your help with something." And then I guide him out the backdoor in my sneaky way (he kind of thinks I'm like a sexy temptress, which is totally bull), and then I ask if he's up for it. Like "Can you teach me how to kiss?" I kind of know he'd be all over that, but I guess I just want to check with real people first.

Would that totally freak you out? He's kind of the playerish type, he's kissed a lot of girls, and he does whatever I tell him. Which I feel bad about and I don't usually use to my advantage. Should I go for it?

Also, I'm not trying to say in any way that I have power over him or that I'm like super attractive or anything. I'm just explaining the situation.

Thank you!

So, this is the story:
Me and this guy dated for maybe a year, but we were friends before.
It was a difficult relationship since the begining, with ups and downs, but we really wanted it to work. It started to get worst and worst until I couldn't handle it any longer and broke up with him. There was no cheating or beating or anything like that from any of the parts.
But It was a really hard break up for both.
We tried to be friends again, but it never worked well because he wanted me to be his gf again..
Eventually I fell in love and got another boyfriend, and when I told him he got really bad and we don't talk since then. We send happy birthday and Christmas cards to each other, but nothing else..
I don't know if he is hurt still or if he has moved on and wants me out of his life.
Or if he hates me for having moved on
Or for not having tried harder to save our relationship..
We might have been a shitty couple but he is or was one of the best friends I ever had. I really miss that and I think it's a pity to lose such an amazing friendship because of this.
Please guys and girls give me your opinion about this, thank you