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Im sure its different in every city. But in my city. I can't leave the house without being asked for money every time I hit a red light. I drive 10 miles to school. I usually see 2-3 homeless that I have to ignore and feel bad for. I dont have much money myself. If I gave money to homeless every time I saw one Id end up on the streets in short time.

I remember the moment that set me over the edge. Now I just get mad when I see someone begging for change. The moment was when I left the check cashing place. I've had an empty wallet for a week. FINALLY got my paycheck and i rush to the check cashing place. Saw the homeless guy sitting there when I pulled up.. He ignored me when I went into the cashing place. Feeling good because I now have a fat stack. I walk out of the cashing place and all I hear was "spare some change?" I looked right at him with so much anger and said "What the fuck? Are you kidding me? The fucking nerve you got.. fuck youu!" Get in my car and peel out of there. SO pissed. I can't even have my pay for more than 1 minute now before I get a homeless person asking me money.

I wasn't always like this. Knowing half if not more are more than capable of making money in other means, I wasn't going to give my spare money to a guy thats going to hop in a benz and drive away right after. I was judging homeless people. Judging homeless on whether or not they are actually homeless, just plain lazy, or some 6 digit salary fake... The last homeless guy I gave money too. ($5 all the cash I had on me) You ever see chapped lips that you're lke "Oh my GOD!!!" well thats what this guys whole FACE looked like. this was about a year ago.

I can go on and on about specific stories but id be here all night. Point is, I now have an overwhelming sense of rage when I see a homeless begging for money (every time I leave the house) at least perform... do something interesting.. These fuckers just sit and BEG! GAHH

Do you feel this way or am I just a huge asshole?