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I’m 17 and he’s in his 20s so he’s quite young. I’m not gonna do anything obviously because I don’t want us to get in trouble and I wouldn’t go that far anyway.

I’ve really started to notice his looks and I think he’s lowkey really sexy, he has green eyes and brown hair. His body is on point too and he kind of has muscles.
I hate making eye contact with him because every time I look at him I think about kissing and having sex with him. I would actually let him do all sorts of things to me if we could.

it’s hard to try and not think about it but he’s the type to make eye contact with people and when he’s helping me I find myself really close to his face and have to look away because I cringe.
This really needs to stop because I’m also starting to have dreams about him which I know cannot happen anyways, I like boys my own age don’t get me wrong, but because I’m spending lessons with him it’s getting so intense.

Poll question: Is it bad that I’m trying to avoid him outside of lessons but at the same time I try to ask for more help just so I would look at him?