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I have PTSD, panic attacks, anxiety, flashback and triggers. 2 years ago I was assaulted. In my childhood I was molested and raped more than once. I didn’t know it was wrong at the time. I kept on thinking why are all these things happening to me and then I knew why, it’s because I’m a girl. I can’t feel safe walking on the streets men are harassing me I feel afraid sometimes I might not reach home. Just like everyone I have dreams too, but I let all these abuse that happened to me belittle my value. I let myself believe I’m not smart enough to go to college, I’m not beautiful for nice clothing, I’m not fit for a better job and I let my self esteem go down so low that I don’t believe in myself anymore because of what people did to me I don’t have any other value other than to satisfy men even I don’t want to it’s the only thing I feel like I have value for. Because of this belief I fail in high school I work a low job which is very hard and I barely eat. Everyone betrayed me. I have no one. There’s no place for me. I just want to disappear but you know what I have another dream, I want to marry someone who will protect me. I have no one to protect me everyone blames me for my abuse saying I shouldn’t have went there. But I tried to fight him off but I couldn’t, he pinned me down and his hands were so big and he was so much stronger his body was on top of me I kept on saying no so many times it didn’t mean anything to him I was alone, powerless praying for it to be over. It was over but now I’m suffering and I’m trying to find ways to heal but I can’t 😭, my life is over, he damaged me. Everyone betrayed me I don’t have anyone I’m all alone. He ruined and destroyed plenty of my dreams and hope. Will anyone want to marry me? Can I live by myself? Or am I too unstable for my of that? Please be honest it’s okay ❤️

I’m 23 and I have my own studio, however parents plan soon move to a very far city 2 hours away middle of nowhere. My brother lives there with his wife but his wife’s family gossip a lot & his wife don’t let my brother talk to me as she gets jealous. I have a year & more we don’t talk. Last year I lived with brother & wife for a month & I got more anxiety & stress. I had no life, everything was far & had go daily to brothers sisters house where I was ignored left out. I live 20 min away from boyfriend. But we aren’t at stage yet to live together but he visits studio each time we go for date, he doesn’t even eat at rest aunts with me now we eat in my studio. I have a cousin that moved to Florida he’s my same age & has his apartment alone. Whole life I had follow bro & wife to all their dates as a child & follow wife’s parties events with her family. I feel now I shud have own new life with boyfriend I don’t deserve be black sheep following them forever like a robot. Parents plan move to far city & I feel sad y they need move 2 hours away. I’m also tired don’t want be sleeping in moms same bed just following parents as I’m 23 not a 5 year old kid. I would feel depresed & not like a woman independent but a child. I also don’t want live alone forever I feel everyone needs a partner. A lot of times i get stress to be alone 24/7 in my small studio. So boring. I don’t have friends a lot of girls have been mean to me & just gone with their bfs. My best friend is my boyfriend.