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Read further if you want to know what Bipolar really is like, I'll explain how I experience it, but it's different for everyone. Basically, Bipolar is about Mania and Depression. I'm really just curious to see what people think.

PS. Bipolar mood swings are not usually triggered by anything, unless excess stress. If you get super happy or sad at small things, you probably have something else, or are just a teenager.

MANIA for me is like a rush of euphoria. You know when you're going down a roller coaster, or when you have a crush/love, and the feeling you get in your chest? The butterflies, euphoria and the rush? Yeah, that's what my mania feels like. But there is no roller coaster, love or anything. It's just Mania. The feeling is there for weeks. I stop sleeping, down to 2-4 hours a night or maybe none at all, and I am still full of energy and euphoria. My eyes turn large and wide, I can't stop talking, I have to keep running and moving around. I go outside and shop, spend maybe up to 10,000$ while I'm manic. I'm talking so fast no one understands me. My thoughts are going 100x faster than usual full of plans and ideas. I become delusional, I think I'm going to become famous and I can't stop thinking about how loved I will be. I need to quit my job now and move to LA so I can really become famous. I sometimes hallucinate during this time. I also get hypersexual. My mania lasts a couple of weeks. You can look up some YouTube videos if you are still confused.

DEPRESSION. It lasts weeks or months, sometimes years. I can't get out of bed, I'm usually crying or irritated at the world, and I'm usually sleeping 12-18hours per day. I don't see a reason as to why I should get out of bed. I'm hopeless, worthless and no one likes me. I'm crazy and I don't see why I should continue living. I sometimes contemplate suicide.

I always get breaks between the two, though. I'm also on medication, so I am stable now.